so as u can c. i have ignored my previous blog. n stated a new one. i wana change everitin in lyf. wana b sum1 beta nw. =)) ok. my paz. my heart was jux being broken by my bf. his my memoriex n dose were all dat is left 4 me. 6 mthx of relationship went wasted. i wonder y. he started goin 2 a new skul. new environment. so i gux met new frenx. boys+galx. i trusted him so much. n dis is wad he gave me bck in reutrn. damn. lyf is nvr fair. de way he ask 4 brek was so damn saddening la. i came 2 his skul. i miss him so much. n wanted 2 see him so much dat i wil do anitin 2 mit him so i went 2 skul. asked my cuzin, ada 2 eat with me at banquet. i was hungry n at de same tym wantin 2 mit him. but i dint noe wad i was about 2 get. he gt angry with me n decided 2 tell me de whole truth. gosh. it hurtx. de paz few daex b4 de brekup, i had tolerated with his change behaviour. i knew dat sth was amiss n alwaex taut dat he had another gal. but again i TRUSTED him. i kept on sayin dat his dere 4 me n would nt go 2 anoder gal. i cared 4 him n dint hear 2 any advices and continued being patient wif him. little do i noe dat sumone is goin aftr him n takin gd care of him n UNDERSTAND him more. wad a nyc thin 2 noe aftr al de sacrifices i made 4 him. all de help i had given him dis past 6th monthx. but i have 2 sae, de 6 mth was incredible. lyf was gr8 wit him. i have 2 sae he was one of de bex guy i met. he change my lyf in a sense dat i now noe how 2 stand 4 wads ryt. i thank him 4 de moments i had with him. ok bck 2 him. dough i noe dat sum how he have a gal with him. i jux wana hu she was. i noe its like wadeva 4? but i jux wana noe. mira ke nana ke? wadeva la. i wana noe. i noe im not supox 2 feel upset over dis matter again. but is jux very hard n painful. lucky thin during de brek up. my cuzin of mine was dere 2 comfort me. thx adawiyah. *loves* im gona be a diff person nw. n i wana stat on dis new motto, STAY HEALTHY!! sumhow i've been studyin about diseases n stufx. im soscared i be one. so ya i wana kip my self fit n healthy. will stat 2 eat vege(err??) n fruitx! i promix myself 2 eat junk food only 1dae in a week! n aftr dis week wil be goin 2 gym with wei-qi! whee. n aftr dat wil be puasa+attatchment! *smilex* k im outx now. plz pray 4 me dat i recover soon frm dis sicknexx. nobody's here 2 be my LOVE doctor.=((